i haven't been on here for ages so i think i'll leave something incase anyone is bored. alot alot has been happening lately, i finally started music college, its great, i'm already in a band and we are working on songs, hopefully getting some recordings this week. I have met a few people there that are cool, so thats good, as before i went there, i didn't have a great deal of close friends, and now i do, so hopefully i will be getting out more when i have the chance, im really enjoying my time there, its BRILL

Another things thats been up and down lately, is my relationship with sophie. loads of stuff has been happening and most of it is due to paranoia, guilt, stress and confusion. we have talked, so maybe things will pick up. some things proper hurt and stuff, but i can deal with them to the best i can. knowing that the one you love could be falling for someone else isnt nice, but i cant blame her, its mostly my fault, i shouldn't of pushed her out. i love her loads, i dont think i could imagine life without her, she helps me loads =/ i think that will do for this subject.

well thats about it really. im enjoying life as much as i can, i have a day off today which is good, because i'm like very tired.

joe x

mm, lately has been alrite, the weekend was good fun. i saw sophie after she got back from france and stayed at hers, we went out on saturday into lincoln and had a good day.

today is a year since me and sophie have been together, i cant see her cos my dad cant pick me up cos he has to pick my uncle up from the airport. and my mum is a twat.

i hate letting her down so much, im so shit to her sometimes :/
i piss her off and make her down loads.
i just wanna thank her for sticking by me this past year.
and putting up with allthe shit i cause.


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i havnt left a blog entry for a few weeks and i am bored so i am going to leave one now.
a few things have happened, and the main one that worries me was me and sophie splitting up the other week, we are back together now though.
i think me and her are all sorted out and stuff, well atleast thats the impression i get.
some people fuck me off getting involved and throwing opinions round about me which fucks me off.
i am not a cunt, they all need to know the full story about everything before they judge.
i feel abit paranoid and shit, but i guess thats normal after something like that, sophie has told me she feels the same.
whats with her friends asking her to compare this relationship with one from the past.. who the fuck do they think they are.
i no which relationship they are refering to. pfft.
that can stop there cos i am gettin pissed off.

the rest of my life = shit.
nothing great happening till saturday when sophie gets back from france.
i miss her so fucking much, its unbelievable.
i never thought i could miss someone this much, i love her so fucking much.
i need to find a job or something, cos i wanna get my driving lessons out the way.

i need to find my papers for access to music aswell cos i need a buss pass and stuff.
been playing guitar most of this week and i have improved quite abit
that will do for now.

bye

well havnt left a blog for like 2 weeks, haha. where do i start, in general it's been good to be honest.
there has been a few ups and downs but nothing that hasnt been sorted now.
i stayed at sophies on friday night, it was her dads presentation night for his football team, he got wasted
he is proper funny when he is drunk, some of the stuff he said was so funny .
then we went back to hers and i stayed there, saturday we didnt do much but it was great

since then. has been alrite. last night was horrible, something that happened a while back got brought up, and it all went over the top and me and sophie both ended up feelings like shit. we both have regrets, but we are strong so we can get through it like we always do. its only the lies i cant handle, but i have lied aswell so i guess she is the same. everyone learns from mistakes though

i am pretty pissed of at myself at the minute, tbh i wish i could go back a few years :/ and tried at school, i want a job, i am sick of sitting round doing nothing all day, i might buy a new playstation haha that will give me something to do in the day time.

thats about everything really. havnt gone into great detail.

i love you sophie, never forget that

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the last week has been alrite i guess. apart from the last few days. they have been abit up & down. last weekend i went to see spiderman 3 with sophie and i think that film was rather amazing . on the saturday we didnt do to much we walked around and stuff was alrite. i had to work on sunday and monday which sucked. the week has been alrite so far. been a few arguments and stuff. but they are all sorted out now, i found something out again, i dont like it but i will deal with it. not much anyone can do about it. things happen. well thats abvout it really i cant think i havnt been awake long. haha.

me and sophie are better than we've been in a long time.

oh and p.s...craig and jade.. you suck ! (y).


peace out DUDE.


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